Oh that demon within. Do you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is destructive. You drive your ambitions deep into my soul. And there I rest, the monster inside playing around inside of me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more that I try and run from you.
But I will fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my disability to see the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? I know you are here...right here within me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely aware of what you actually are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool any person any longer by showing them a smile on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let's take a hike and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you would like to say about all those years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your success? Perhaps I will be able to even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. I am going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my decisions are based on light. It's really time to begin living my life and make the best decisions I can. But I'm aware that I must talk with you...oh harsh devil deep within. You can show me a path that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been scared to go. But to ignore you further would be out of stupidity. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a hike. I'd like to hear what you have to say.
But I will fight no longer, only to tenderly embrace your presence. Does this confuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so perfect and so tight due to my disability to see the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I announced before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? I know you are here...right here within me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely aware of what you actually are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool any person any longer by showing them a smile on my face. No, I'll just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all those times you cut me down. Now, let's take a hike and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you would like to say about all those years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your success? Perhaps I will be able to even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the start of a long relationship. I am going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my decisions are based on light. It's really time to begin living my life and make the best decisions I can. But I'm aware that I must talk with you...oh harsh devil deep within. You can show me a path that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I've always been scared to go. But to ignore you further would be out of stupidity. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's take a hike. I'd like to hear what you have to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
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